Seeking the Promise | Original Painting | Framed

This piece is about meditation.

I was lying in this position for a long time due to my hamstring being torn, this was the most comfortable way to lay. A different depiction than my usual meditation symbols 🧘‍♀️🧘‍♂️

I am thankful for the opportunity I had during that time to meditate as I had never done before. There was not a single thing distracting me besides pain. No life responsibilities, no hobbies, not even a job. (Rarely does anyone have such freedom)
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I'm sure I could have painted but due to the pain it was rather challenging, in fact this piece was painted mostly while sitting in bed, which is also challenging! Haha

Anyways, I had the full opportunity to meditate all day for days on end. Although it was not always pretty and I found myself in some really dark places. Thankfully with experience, I've learned my way out of those dark places. Still took me a while, but it takes a little less time each time.

I was meditating with the intention of finding inner peace, something I believe is promised to me from the Divine.
Also, I was seeking the Divine themselves. Still seeking, as I do every day.

I was focusing on not identifying with anything. I was trying to lose sight of who I thought I was, I felt called to do this. To go inward to find my true self. To surrender. "Thy will, not mine"

I think I lost sight of who I AM more then I meant to during that time and got depressed. Who would have thought meditation could cause depression. But this is where we do the work. Behind a closed door, we meet with our Maker in the secret. Transmuting spiritual energy.

In the end I found the truth of who God is to me and who I AM within God. I found peace! Just took a lot of sifting and sorting! Thought I'd already learned these lessons, but many things parade as false "soul-happiness".