Just imagine a blur. It’s blurry, fuzzy, foggy.
Going faster with every second, sight becomes a blur, on a speeding rollercoaster of confusion!
“Oh wait, actually it’s pretty clear, I feel clarity.”
“Neverminded, I feel depressed again.”
“Well actually, now I feel elation, imagination & joyous feelings!”
What a roller coaster?!
I don’t know if that sounds familiar to you or not, but that’s what my life was like. Honestly I know you can relate, you’re only human and we all have our own roller coaster rides we’re strapped into unknowingly. After all, how much time do we give ourselves to process it?
Well, that was no augment for me, I spent tons of time processing, tons of time on me, taking care of myself in every way I knew how. Yet, all the things they say about self-care, “heal yourself, heal the world,” just slow down and spend time on you, none of that stuff was working.
In fact, I was so tired of taking care of me that I simply gave up!
At this point (in the spring of 2020) I was giving up all the hard work I’d put in towards my wholeness and wellbeing. It was shortly after I had made and posted a video about how much I’d learned & the tips and tools that had helped me up until that point. And while everything in that video is very relevant for healing and important stepping stones towards wholeness, I was missing one very important...and I mean super important, extremely, extremely important piece of the puzzle, and that piece is: To Never Give Up!
When I’d “fallen” into a depression again, I felt even more like a fraud because I’d talked about my healing journey in that video. Thankfully this time I wasn’t too hard on myself because I knew that what I had shared were steps that did help me & might help someone else too.
Turns out there were just more steps!
But I was so done with those stinkin’ steps! Why couldn’t I just flip the page and be on to my new life without all the struggle!?!