"Focus in Imagination"

"Focus in Imagination"
11 x 14 in Watercolor (with glitter gloss gel medium mixture on rainbows)

This piece is especially important to me. I had been drawing a lot of artist paint pallets while waitressing as a way of praying visually. My prayer was that I would not be waitressing and rather be a full-time professional artist. So the paint pallet is a symbol to me of Pro-Artist!

Unfortunately I manifested my job going away in an inharmonious way. In hindsight I realized I didn't feel brave enough to quit and so tried to get myself fired and made a fool of myself in the process. Eventually this led to getting a shift taken away as punishment, so I just quit because I realized the business didn't have my best interest in mind and I was wasting my potential there.

I do wish I'd gone about quitting in a more mature way, but at least I learned a lot. It revealed to me I had a lot of negative energy around "jobs", money, and being confident as a full-time artist....all that I wasn't aware of before.

Funny because I felt my Intuition so strongly telling me to quit and I didn't listen, only to have the situation blow up in my face the very next week. All could have been avoided if I had heeded the advice of my Inner Being.

So I made this painting as a way of healing some of those feelings. Giving myself permission to be an artist. Because sometimes I don't feel worthy to create. But here I am, unable to stop myself!

This piece means to me that I must keep my focus (the eye symbol) within my imagination. The Necortex & Thalamus are apparently responsible for imagination.
And what am I imagining? My prayer. My prayer to rise up and be the artist I know I've been called to be (forgiving my past mistakes that would hold me back)

Why is it important to live from my imagination? Because this is the center of the garden, where the seeds of ideas and beliefs are germinated into their physical equivalent.

Living up to the truth that I know and not being so quick to respond in immature ways is certainly a challenge for me. But I tune out the past experiences (I've left the last 3 jobs on bad terms) and realize they are delusions. Learning and growing forward.