I sure hope there's Angels on my Insides!
"Entrails" Original Acrylic Painting by Matilda Wentzel
Matilda with her painting "Entrails"
Entrails:
Noun
a person or animal's intestines or internal organs, especially when removed or exposed.
the innermost parts of something.
This painting is full of tears and music. Music is a good place to process and indeed often brings me to tears. Tears drain our hearts of pain and music fills it with healing.
I have been meditating on this verse lately as I've always been a "crier":
"Crying is better than laughing.
It blotches the face, but it scours the heart." ~Ecc 7:3 (from the Bible)
This verse has always been hard for me to understand and at times I have even disliked myself for crying.
But there is healing in humility!
By lowering our heart of pride, we let down the illusions of life which bind us to our false pleasures.
We also see an angel as I have been coming back to my Faith and noticing that I need supernatural protection from illusions and temptations that are not for my highest good. (Seems superstitious right? but remember it is all just symbols for things which we cannot understand)
There is so much to this story I am not telling you, but I will explain more with time and you may gleam bits and pieces from my podcast as well.
I did not fully escape the temptations and darkness that had a hold on my life which I will talk more about soon. But I am freer everyday as I seek God and "His/Her" Wisdom.
If you've listened to my podcast you know I'm going through heartbreak and divorce. I've never felt so much pain in my life and the tears seem to never end.
I am happy to receive any and all words of encouragement, advice, or love you have to send my way, I know I need to hear as much upliftment as I can get.
I painted this at a music festival and I actually painted over a piece I had done 10 years ago.